My bio just called me and he was like he was in the psych ward the last two weeks because he decided to undergo electric shock therapy ‘cause he was so depressed and i ??!?!?!?!!!!! and he tried telling me what they did and i was just no. But he said he feels so different and better now and i honestly feel like it’s, i forget how you call it, but that thing where something seems to work because you believe it will. He was telling me how they’re selling their land in palestine and that it’s really good land and they’re essentially gonna be making bank and how he’s gonna take care of me and this and that. he was also going on about how i was all he could think about and how much he loves me and i meant to him etc etc and i always say this, but it’s ‘cause he always says that, but i just don’t understand?? Like if you love me oh so much why didn’t you try connecting with me before my fucking teens, like i felt so abandoned my entire childhood. My mum would threaten me with sending me to him when i was too much for her, like shit. Also, he has like i don’t know how many other kids?? What is so special about me? Like honestly.
back on a brighter note though, he was saying how he wanted me to meet some of the family and i was just like !!! Yes!!! let’s do it!! I’m so about it and excited. He’s the only one i have ill feelings for, i am so ready to be so affectionate with the rest of my family, like honestly.He was surprised by my excitement but was like yeah, sure, i’ll try to get something together (although i’m pretty sure i expressed my desire to meet family in the past?). I’m gonna see him on Friday. We’re gonna get greek food and maybe see a movie?
 I was sad to learn one of my aunts has blood and bone cancer, apparently, i knew she had cancer but i didn’t know she had those, and i really hope to meet her soon