Today hasn’t necessarily been a bad day, but what the fuck???? I spent most of my day at work with that feeling in the pit of my stomach like i was going to have a panic attack at any moment and just felt like trash for most of my shift, and i did something that i know marks me falling back into bad habits, and it’s not related, i don’t think, but i just have such a fucking urge to self harm and what the fuck and i haven’t been able to focus on actually finishing my hw due tomorrow and i think one is technically late but also not and i don’t know i don’t know i don’t know?!??!??!